Its getting dark.
Darkness has always intrigued me. My views about darkness have evolved over time. I believe darkness is omnipresent. Light is momentary. What exists before and after light is darkness. Darkness is a great filler. Think about it... It comes every where unlike light. Light needs a source. Darkness does not need a source. It is sourceless creation. Even doubt that it ever needed to be created as I think it existed even before Big Bang!
When I was little I would usually associate scary creatures such as ghosts, spirits, monsters etc with darkness. As I grew, I found out there is more to darkness. This is what soaks us all in eventually.
I sometime get panic attacks before going to sleep. I fear end of time. End of life as we know it. Of course I won't be here to witness that. Believe me I have no interest in that. What has born has to die one day and so will our little planet. But its the endlessness of darkness after that. I feel my chest emptying out with anxiety thinking about what after that? And what after that? Infinite darkness? Its hard to sleep with these thoughts.
I heard a story once about a dispute between Darkness and Sun. Darkness went to God complaining about Sun that Sun is not letting her exist. God called Sun. Darkness was no where to be found. At that point it was all about how great Sun is. It would never let darkness stay around. But today I wonder who has more endurance? In a battle between Sun and Darkness who will win at last? I think we all know the answer... Darkness has infinite patience.
Its easy to say but hard to follow the light as it is not always there. We cannot deny darkness. It has always been there.
All I say to me after my fight with darkness is- Face your fears and go to sleep.
Darkness has always intrigued me. My views about darkness have evolved over time. I believe darkness is omnipresent. Light is momentary. What exists before and after light is darkness. Darkness is a great filler. Think about it... It comes every where unlike light. Light needs a source. Darkness does not need a source. It is sourceless creation. Even doubt that it ever needed to be created as I think it existed even before Big Bang!
When I was little I would usually associate scary creatures such as ghosts, spirits, monsters etc with darkness. As I grew, I found out there is more to darkness. This is what soaks us all in eventually.
I sometime get panic attacks before going to sleep. I fear end of time. End of life as we know it. Of course I won't be here to witness that. Believe me I have no interest in that. What has born has to die one day and so will our little planet. But its the endlessness of darkness after that. I feel my chest emptying out with anxiety thinking about what after that? And what after that? Infinite darkness? Its hard to sleep with these thoughts.
I heard a story once about a dispute between Darkness and Sun. Darkness went to God complaining about Sun that Sun is not letting her exist. God called Sun. Darkness was no where to be found. At that point it was all about how great Sun is. It would never let darkness stay around. But today I wonder who has more endurance? In a battle between Sun and Darkness who will win at last? I think we all know the answer... Darkness has infinite patience.
Its easy to say but hard to follow the light as it is not always there. We cannot deny darkness. It has always been there.
All I say to me after my fight with darkness is- Face your fears and go to sleep.
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